Your thoughts affect your health
It has taken me 5 days to get sick. Today is the fifth day. I’ve realized how mental stability affects your overall health.
Day 1
It’s Monday — and it’s time to get to work! I mean it’s time to work from home. I am still a newcomer to my company and I‘m under pressure daily. Today I’ve got a new task. Something I’ve never done before, but that’s OK, I can google it. Let’s start. 1 hour… 2 hours… 3 hours… 4… Errors, bugs… Damn, I can’t do this!
It’s getting on my nerves. I’ve made a progress but that’s just a beginning. And I want to complete this task today!
Day 2
I’m still working on the same thing. It’s lunch and I’m crying. My husband is upset too. He reminds me that it’s not a big deal. OK, you’re not helping, let me continue!
Day 3
I’m so nervous. I’m such a loser. I’m crying again. My husband wants to help, but I don’t need any help, thanks. Just let me work. I haven’t eaten today, nor do I want to. I’m not eating well this week.
Business hours are over. I’m almost in a panic mode. I do understand that it’s just a task and I best not react so badly but I HAVE TO COMPLETE THIS TASK YESTERDAY! I’m upset.
A couple of hours later, I made it. But my mood is on another continent. I’m angry. My husband is upset.
Day 4
I can’t sleep all night. I hate how my nerves affect our family. Don’t I understand my priorities? I want to be funny and relaxed but I’m getting on everyone’s nerves.
I’ve got another task today, but I’m just waiting for a weekend. I’m still frustrated with myself and my emotions. I’m such a loser.
I don’t feel very well. My back hurts and I have a headache. I want to eat soup, but our oven is broken and we only have a microwave. I eat pica. It’s good, but I want the soup.
I still have a freelancing job to finish. I don’t want to work, but I have a contract and a deadline…
Day 5
It’s Friday. I can’t fall asleep until the morning again. I’m tired.
I’m almost done with my task. I shall start with another one but I want to sleep badly. I’m feeling down. I’m feeling sick.
I’m hard on myself. It’s stupid. I can’t cope with my emotions. I don’t know how to relax stay calm. Now I feel like s**t.
Just breathe, and don’t let your emotions get the best of you!
Photo by Vladislav Muslakov on Unsplash
Sincerely yours, Hard Freedom.